Struggling into 2007
Ahh.... One more day, 24 more hours and 1000's of more minutes...This year is only about 45 days into its bloom and yet has brought so many different challenges to my life... I love challenges and struggle, I just do not enjoy hopelessness.
It seems like a long story..December was OK. I was very busy at work. She probably just doing her stuff. Let me think..
We went to the pistons on 31st Dec with floor tickets... fight that night
I worked on moving all my finances to Quicken.
January, It was our wedding anniv. I bought her coats. We had dinner at Red Lob and so on. We have also been meeting with Naj's family in December.
Work has been very busy, working on different databases and taking on more and more responsibilities. Yeah all things like that. December & January was creppy mainly becoz of pak issues with new house & stuff. Sent 3g to amee. fights with amee etc. . and just one thing after another. This month we have been dining out a lot. Her involvement in things is always minimal. I just feel like I have to take care of her like a teenager. our arguments, our bickering, our attacks on each other just keep getting worse. Few days ago we started arguing in the mall on some stupid thing I said & how she responded, turned out it was all just a misunderstanding and lack of proper communication.
Last week, i just stopped arguing and decided to not get frustrated anymore. Last night it was again something she said that just pierced through my heart and short circuited my brain..
All around me.... just hopelessness & hell. I did not argue, I stopped saying anything. just went out & tried to fall asleep. Last 30 days we have been working on apartment, I go back & there is so much still needs to be done. I work all day & then go home & start working again. First time in her married life she has re arragned small things a little bit. Argument was about her having so many clothes. atleast 6 boxes , that are just sitting there. boxes of Clothes.
I dont know may be she is right, may be its not that many clothes, may be I am wrong. Just can't argue with her anymore. Just don't want to argue anymore. Just wanna be nice and live my life....